Sometimes I think I’m the bee’s knees. And then I cringe. Who even says “Bee’s knees?!?!”
I do, apparently, except not really. Only when writing the first blog post on my author website. That in itself is so overwhelming I don’t even want to think about it. The first post on my AUTHOR WEBSITE. People are going read this and judge me and wonder about what I write and who I am and what if they read my blog and think I’m some weird kind of girl who uses completely random and old fashioned phrases like, “Bee’s knees.”
Coincidentally, this is me.
Writing is something I’ve been doing since forever. Only wish I hadn’t waited forever to start taking it seriously. One book isn’t enough to get all the kinks out. Word on the street is it can take an author seven books before they really get the hang of it.
My husband once accused me of being a quitter.
On the surface, you may agree with him. Though I took great offense at his accusation. Yes, honey, I “quit” 14 jobs the first five years we were together… but it’s not like that. You have to look at the bigger picture here.
I’m a starter. Not a quitter.
When you begin something new, it’s only natural that not everything else can come along for the ride. Obviously, when I started waiting tables at The Country Kitchen, I wasn’t able to also wait tables at The South Side Grill. Of course, when I started making pizza at Pizza Hut, I stopped waiting tables at The Country Kitchen.
Once I started substitute teaching, I didn’t have time for my work at Pizza Hut. And you can understand that when I started having children, I didn’t teach anymore.
Altering dresses was something I started when we were broke and wanted to pay off debt. It was a great side hustle, but when I started writing… it left precious little time for sewing.
When I had my fourth kid, I started feeling sick and overwhelmed. Therefore, writing was left behind for awhile. (See what I did there? I didn’t quit.)
Love finds a way.
My characters never quit on me. Their story never died. All the dreams and plot twists and excitement of my imaginary world only grew stronger until I started again.
It happened like this:
- Realized I had to get the story out or it would claw its way from the inside.
- Wrote for 30 minutes a day.
- Took advantage of the extra time with the husband working from home.
- Finished the manuscript and realized: I CAN DO THIS AND I LOVE IT.
So hey, this is me. I like to start things. Being an author is the start of something great for me. Just imagine how many stories I will start (and finish!).
New characters have already introduced themselves to me before I’ve begun writing their story.
Zeke and Eloise will always have a special place in my heart as my first two main characters. They taught me amazing things. Getting to know them was one of the most interesting things I’ve ever experienced. To have a character that I thought I had created start talking for herself on the page? It’s truly fascinating.
This is one of the reasons I’m not quitting. I can’t wait to see what else these characters have to say. Who knows, maybe one of them will start talking about the bee’s knees… I doubt it… but nothing’s impossible.
4 thoughts on “This is me”
I love this so much! I’m so glad you are writing! I always saw you as an author. And encouraging husbands are amazing. I’ve been building a photography business that I love, and the young me would very much approve of. The older I’ve gotten the more I realize I should’ve listened to my younger self more. ❤️
Yes! Good for you. Definitely reminds me to encourage my kids in their interests, too.
I relate to this pretty hard core! I’ve broken down and called myself an intellectual dilettante, though! 😂
It must be a trait common to the creative geniuses, yes!?